Life Is So Strange

Life is totally strange for me right now. I feel as if I have a million things running through my head right now. I start a 3 week home heath aide program on Monday, which, I am not looking forward to.

I feel as if I’m just here, not engaged at all, just here, because I have to be, going through the motions. Doing what I have to do, just because I know I have to, or else, I’ll get hounded by staff if I don’t. Going thorugh the motions, without feeling emotion.

I just can’t wait for the three weeks to be over! I’d rather be in bed, not worrying about a scary world, me feeling as if I’m heading straight for a black hole, emotionless and zombie-like.